Do you ever feel like the Universe (or whoever your higher power is), just dumps on you? Like one thing after another, the hits just keep coming. Like she believes in you so much that she forces you to carry the weight of the world. To be the strong one, to be the supportive one, to be well put together and just handle it all. Some days that shit is HEAVY! Some days I'm not even strong enough, I'm not sure how I'm going to make it through but some how I do.
No matter who you are, where you come from or what you believe in; I think we can all agree that sometimes life is just TOO heavy. We don't know how to manage the hits that keep coming, we don't have the time to process what is going on, half the time we don't know if we are coming or going! What feels heavy to you, may not feel heavy to me and vice versa but that doesn't take away from the fact that it is in fact, heavy.
I had every intention of writing this post about April's Awareness Causes (Alcohol Awareness, Stress Awareness and Donate Life Awareness to name a few) but once I started to think about how heavy each of those things were for me, I suddenly didn't want to dedicate a whole post to them. For me, in my life, each of these intertwined. Stress lead to alcohol, and alcohol lead to donating a life. The simple thought alone makes my stomach turn. I try to take these awareness months and bring some good, share some knowledge, encourage a little power but I just don't have that in me lately.
Lately, life has been heavy. I lost three people I loved dearly in a span of 9 months. I know for a fact I haven't finished grieving for the first one to even begin processing the others. I find myself disassociating often, like my body is there but my mind is somewhere else. It helps me not think about the heavy load of life to step out of reality for a little. Sometimes I do it and I don't even realize it.
I know I repeat myself a lot when it comes to this but we never truly know what a person is going through. We never truly know what their home life is like, their family dynamics, their social settings, their work personality versus their home personality. We don't know how many people are just faking it 'til the make it. Every day they put on that face and every night they may cry into their pillow. We just never know what load someone else is bearing.
When you feel like life is becoming to be too heavy to carry, take a step back. Everything needs to unplug sometimes to reboot and start again (even us humans). Take a moment to slow down. Breathe. Prioritize the important things first. Doing this may lighten the load a bit. Don't get me wrong, it's still going to feel heavy AF but perhaps a little less heavy.
Often times we feel like we have to do it all. We say yes to plans we really don't want to do, we say sure I'll take care of that, when our plate is already full. We take on more tasks even though our days are already filled with all the things. Thus, creating more weight on your shoulders but this time, YOU created the weight. For every 'yes' that we give, for every 'I'll take care of it', or 'just let me do it'... WE are adding to our heaviness. Self-inflicted my friends. We DO have the power to lighten our load, should we choose to do so.
So next time you are feeling like the world is just too heavy, take a look at what role you may be playing in your own heaviness. Can you delegate some of it? Can you say 'no' to a few things? Maybe say yes, next time someone asks if you need help? Think about what weight you are carrying, does some of it belong to someone else? It's not yours to carry. You have enough to carry on your own. It's OK to say, 'I just can't right now'.
I guess in a way I ended up talking about stress awareness without being aware of it until now LOL Silly brain, just does whatever it wants these days.
But seriously, life is hard. Life is heavy. Life is unfair. Life will test you. Life can beat you down. Life can make you cry. Life can have you screaming why. The weight can get heavier and heavier, some days making in unbearable. I do believe though that eventually, one day, it will begin to get lighter, a little less heavy. If you're struggling right now, I see you. If you juggling a million things trying figure out how, I see you. If you are hurting from life, I see you too. Remember that your feelings are always valid and it's OK to not be OK. Life is fucking hard.
In the meantime, we must have strong shoulders to carry the weight of the world on them.
You've totally got this (just keep telling yourself that)!
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