One of the things having ITP has taught me, you don't have to be strong all the time. Sometimes you have to let other people be strong for you. Sometimes you have to let other people fight for you. Sometimes you just have to smile and say thank you.
I've always been one to try and do things on my own. I like being able to say I did that all by myself. I like the feeling I get at accomplishing things by myself. Buuuut truth is, sometimes doing it all by yourself isn't the greatest.
Sometimes, I don't remember everything the doctors are telling me. Sometimes, I feel like I'm in a black hole I can't get myself out of. Sometimes, I just need to cry and have someone tell me it's OK. Not that it's going to be OK because heck, we don't really know that BUT just that in this moment - it's OK to cry. Sometimes, we need people to advocate for us when our soul is tired. I'm realizing - all of that is OK too.
I can't say enough kudos to my support system. My husband has been nothing shy of amazing since I've been diagnosed. He is encouraging, supportive and always asks a ton of questions. I appreciate that more and more as each relapse happens. Often times my head is a bit foggy and I can't remember everything so I'm thankful he's always there. My parents never imagined their first born daughter getting a rare blood disease and I can't imagine that is easy on them. They have always been my biggest fans and cheerleaders. We've been learning about this disease together and I know that I couldn't push through without them. Family and friends have warmed my heart on several occasions. The laughter when I was crying, the support when I was failing, the encouragement when my hope was minimized. Having a good support system makes a world of difference. I know that many people don't have a support system and that breaks my heart. I know that I wouldn't have made it this far without mine.
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